There's no promise of safety with these second hand wings.

another_deluxe @ 2008-10-02T13:57:00

2008-10-02T18:03:20Z

This time of year is getting me down.
It doesn't seem like it's fall.
Too cold.
My body feels like it weighs 200 pounds.
It's so tired.
But my mind is not.
Just want to lay in bed and read.
Better stay away from people.
Stay away from 1 and get closer to 2.
I'm too lazy to go out and meet people.
I hope Phil's house fills back up.
I hope winter goes by fast.

another_deluxe @ 2008-07-27T00:38:00

2008-07-27T04:41:09Z

Don't tell me I'm yours and you're mine, if you aren't 'with' me.
Don't tell me to go, and cry when I leave.
Don't say anything because your mouth is nothing but contradictories.

another_deluxe @ 2007-11-09T17:59:00

2007-11-09T23:02:39Z

Conquests
It was fun to be able to call him and within two minutes he would be at my apartment with a blunt and some love.
He must have realized he was falling into my web, and that was alright by me.
I said goodbye to him because I did what I had came to do.
Planted the seed and I hope for his own sake he is a good liar.

And I have another conquest.
When the hunted became the huntress
The hunter became the prey

another_deluxe @ 2007-09-25T20:05:00

2007-09-26T00:10:55Z

The wolf told her secrets to lure her in.
He told her to trust him, and to tell him some of her secrets.
She would not though, she knew not to trust a wolf.
The wolf told little red that they were just alike- she plugged her ears.
She knew she shouldn't have strayed from the trail, but sometimes she was just so mischievous, and danger liked her.

Let's just skip to the good part

And little red riding hood was saved by the hunter who cut her out of the big bad wolf's stomach before he could digest her.
Now she plans on putting stones in his stomach to watch him slowly die.
How will she trick the wolf into eating the stones instead of consuming her again?
With great care.

another_deluxe @ 2007-09-17T16:58:00

2007-09-17T21:38:03Z

If she can focus enough she can blend in with the floor.
She will be so quiet that they wont notice her.
They can float around and they still wont see her.
She is being so sneaky.
She can feel their oblivion.

She thinks it's much like the hot sun on raw meat somebody left outside.
Thawing.
Flies and aunts swarming.
Rotting.
Coagulation.
Maggots.
Decomposition.

3rd time this week some crazy shit has happened.

2007-05-31T05:04:05Z

I counted around 17 cop cars.
5 shots that I heard.
All in my front yard.
I have never seen so many cop cars in my life.
Chasing after this white car with it's tires blown out.
There's a black woman outside on the phone crying "I TOLD HIM THIS SHIT WOULD HAPPEN".
Then I think a grandma came outside, and another black dude.
The grandma asked him if he had any guns on him, but he didn't.
Then another younger black dude comes up to them shouting -
"I told you that fool was nothing but trouble when he came around. I don't care if he's family."

...And I thought living in Flint was crazy.

Maybe they will lower my rent?

another_deluxe @ 2007-05-29T03:37:00

2007-05-29T07:42:44Z

It's the second time this week a fire truck and an ambulance has been in my apartment complex.
Last time there were about 3 or 4 fire trucks, 5 police cars, and whatever else comes along with it.

A lot of the times, in the mornings, I need to open my blinds and my curtains.
To let the light of a new day in.
To wash everything clean with the sun.
I wash it was that simple.

I need to stop dosing off while reading "Hannible Rising".
It's really fucking up my dreams.

Today I went to lake James.
Jumped off a rock only about 20 feet up.
It was insane.
I think I'll have pictures later.

another_deluxe @ 2007-05-21T22:59:00

2007-05-22T03:08:58Z

Sometimes, a lot of the times, I just want to go numb.
I'm glad I have these vicodins.
I've always wanted to turn myself off. Get rid of my emotions.
Turning to drugs is dumb, but I need to get out of my head.

Something is getting to me and I don't know what it is.
Last night while I was sleeping, I bit Charles on the cheek.
I was screaming at him, and tried to punch him.
I don't remember much, but he slept on the couch for the rest of the night.

Some days I don't really remember who I am.
And neither do my friends.

another_deluxe @ 2007-05-20T16:01:00

2007-05-20T20:05:40Z

I got a job at the mall.
It's so fucking easy, but the pay blows.
I hope in 5 weeks I'll be a "senior sales associate".
Which means I get a 25 cent raise.
Maybe then I can become an assistant manager or some shit.
I might have to get another job, but what we'll see.
I love fatty pancakes Haley.

Oh, and I've got babies.
A bird nested in our grill.
The eggs hatched and now we have babies.

another_deluxe @ 2007-03-28T02:55:00

2007-03-28T07:26:36Z

I keep secrets.
But I am very much in love.
Best.
Maybe I have secrets to fall back on.
To know that love has not completely sucked me into it's trap.
And that I can, in fact, do with out it.
With out him.
But could I really?
Isn't love...
I don't know the definition.
But I know what I feel.
And I know that I have the best feelings. Intentions. Everything.
And same goes for him.
I know we are on the same sentence, paragraph, page, chapter in the same goddamn book.
For once in my life.
And I love it. Loving it. Insecurities and happiness. Yes.
Bliss.

another_deluxe @ 2007-02-28T09:27:00

2007-02-28T14:27:52Z

I am fucking giving up.
And it's going to be amazing.

Like my car.

another_deluxe @ 2007-02-11T20:31:00

2007-02-12T01:32:08Z

"In a perfect perfect world you could fuck people without giving them a piece of your heart.

And every glittering kiss and every touch of flesh is another shard of heart you'll never see again."

Then how did they do it?
I miss some Michiganders.
Come see me nowish.

another_deluxe @ 2007-02-05T13:42:00

2007-02-05T19:03:25Z

This week I'm getting a car.
Ford Taurus.
It's cute.
It's a car.
Getting an apartment soon would be great.

I'm sick as hell.
It sucks.
You should see me looking like a coke head.

So, o'boy got a 16 year old preggers.
Called her a lying cunt, and peaced out.
Now he is dating a 15 year old.
I think that's LOL worthy, right??
Shit that goes down in the south.

[Fucka ex named Charles. He is only good for looking at.]
Now I'm lying on the table
with everything you said
it will all catch up eventually
well, it caught up and honestly
the weight of my decisions
were impossible to hold
but they were never yours

another_deluxe @ 2007-02-01T15:20:00

2007-02-01T20:21:26Z

I just want a place to call home.

another_deluxe @ 2007-01-23T21:58:00

2007-01-24T02:57:59Z

I WANT I WANT I WANT I WANT

another_deluxe @ 2007-01-12T17:31:00

2007-01-12T22:32:45Z

It's all the fucking same.
I swear.

another_deluxe @ 2007-01-11T17:28:00

2007-01-11T22:48:09Z

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around.

Forreal though.
I'm waiting for karma to catch up with a few people.
And when it does, you bet your ass I will laugh and enjoy every minute of it.
Is it bad that I find joy in others' pain?
Yep.
Do I care?
Nope.
Do they deserve it?
Yep.

So enjoy what little happiness you have now.

Oh Oh Oh & oh.
I really forgot how much I love cloves.
I open my pack up and it's like- instant happiness. :]

"Unfortunately the lucky never realizes they are lucky until it's too late.
Take yourself for instance;
yesterday you were better off than you are off today but it took today for you to realize it."- Lucky Number Slevin.

another_deluxe @ 2006-12-26T18:24:00

2006-12-26T23:24:12Z

If there's one thing I learned in life it's-
If you don't expect anything, you'll never be disappointed.

My problem is I expect too much.
I'm trying to stop that.

Also.

PS- I think I'd rather have butterflies than stability.
Is it possible for them to go hand and hand?
Why does everybody want to fall in love?
Why does everybody think that life isn't worth living unless you are in 'love' or are 'loved' or what-the-fuck ever.
I hear this from so many people.
I used to be like that.
But.
I don't want to fall in love.
Because I'll only fall out in a matter of time, anyway.
If it was ever 'love' in the first place.

I love myself.
I love my friends.
I love my life.
I'm satisfied.

Why is that so hard to believe?
Why does it seem like people are trying to test me.
Like they think they can change me?
It's not gonna happen.

:]

another_deluxe @ 2006-12-25T08:25:00

2006-12-25T13:25:50Z

Apparently I met my soul mate.
It's really weird because I usually go by the book.
And it's in the book.
I can't say I'm ready for it.
I know I'm not.
But it's ok.

This year we aren't celebrating x-mas.
I'm ok with it.
I never liked x-mas that much anyway.
But I do enjoy the few people that actually think of me and get me gifts.
It's raining.
We are having a wet Christmas.
Horny Holidays.

So much to do to set my heart right
It's taking so long I could be wrong, I could be ready
But if I take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unready
I'm never really ready.
I'm in repair, I'm not together but I'm getting there

another_deluxe @ 2006-12-13T09:27:00

2006-12-13T14:27:52Z

Heyyy it's my momma's birfday!
I gots her some good shits.
I wanna go out to eat but o'girl wont let me.

Yay.
Tomorrow I get to see three beautiful ladies put on a show.
Mmm sultry goodness.

another_deluxe @ 2006-12-12T08:21:00

2006-12-12T13:21:02Z

Bitches love me cuz they know that I can fuck.

Fuck people who can't keep their word.
If you say you're gonna be there for me, then you better be.
Assholes.
If you say you care, you better fucking show it.
Assholes.

Oh, and breaking up with a girl on the day of her G-ma's funeral is pretty shitty.
In my book.

Hey I like Third Eye Blind.
I get happy when they are on the radio.
And hey I like the Goo Goo Dolls.
They make me happy too.
Don't be such a music Nazi and learn to love what you have.
Hey I'm having a good time here.
Hey bye.

another_deluxe @ 2006-12-10T07:55:00

2006-12-10T12:55:08Z

This makes some sense?

Devin took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

"Wants to prove to herself and others that nothing ..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

another_deluxe @ 2006-12-09T07:59:00

2006-12-09T12:59:51Z

Yep.

another_deluxe @ 2006-12-08T01:44:00

2006-12-08T06:44:41Z

I guess I could never live without you, livejournal.
You always cure my boredom.
And who else am I going to spill my guts to?

Life is going good.
Work work work.
I'm not in love.
I'm not even in like.
I think this is the longest time I've been single since I was 16.
Growing up I guess?

I can't seem to find any girlfriends.
Which is ok, I guess...
But it would be nice.
Girls always intimidate me, anyway.

Human behavior, I guess I will never understand it.

Shit's crazy though.

another_deluxe @ 2006-11-29T12:09:00

2006-11-29T17:09:59Z

Sometimes I wonder who the fuck I am.

And who the fuck was I?
Why.

Weird shit.